Mood: exhausted
Song: Tell Me - Groove Theory

Gonna make this short because I'm sleepy. I had a lot of fun with my loves this weekend (marla, jesse, nicole, yael, ben). We watched a funny movie. No fireworks, though. We made fun of Ben. I felt bad. Jesse made fun of me today to make up for my participation in the making fun of Ben (although he made fun of Ben too...?). KARMA... you better watch yourself ;)

Tonight we had a staff meeting. So much fun (not expected?). The other counselors in Golan are really fun to be around. Sometimes, though, I feel like I lead a double life. Like with the Golan people and the other camp people (and my loves of like the last 10000000000000000 x a milliongabilliongillion years), but it's hard when you aren't entirely "GOLAN" to always be involved in what goes on there. So I sort of feel a little detached from everyone else. This won't make any sense to anyone, but that sucks for you because it makes sense to me and that is all that matters.

My maccabiah team is ridiculously good. haha. We got all of 2 points today. We were guaranteed 1. We are looking A LEAST 10x better than my team last year. Can you tell I'm psyched?

Bay State Games finals on Sat night. Yay for black and blue ankles and not knowing where that stupid shirt went... or the forms... Oops?

P.S. People need to learn how to spell.
Hence,

GUARANTEED
GUARD (i.e. LIFEGUARD...)
WEIRD

so learn it...

assholes :)

I need sleep.

Mood: sleepy
Song: Sweet Surrender - Sarah McLachlan

I haven't worn my new bikini at all yet. So psyched for tomorrow!

Mirrorball by Sarah McLachlan = fabulous live CD (thanks Dana!)

This is has been such a long week. I'm exhausted. Yay for three day weekends! And seeing my girls!

Please remind me to shower tomorrow morning. Thanks.

You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you

Jesse would not approve...

Mood: hungry
Song: Crash Into Me - DMB

It's hard eating only healthy food. Really hard. Haha. I don't think that I'm cut out for it -- but I'm going to keep trying. That means that I can't eat Jesse's lunch for him anymore. Sorry Jesse...

So the most crazy thing ever happened tonight! The track coach from HARVARD called tonight! I totally wasn't expecting it and so I probably sounded like an idiot. But OMG!!! How cool is that? I have to schedule an appointment with him at some point during the summer. Everything is starting to feel so real.

I'm a SENIOR!

Tomorrow Merrily and I are copying all of our CDs (and Dana's) and sharing. Yay for new CDs that don't cost anything! Haha please feel free to donate to the "provide Evan with music fund."

Camp has been going well. Maccabiah started today. The poster looks fabulous (thanks Merrily)! The campers are still pretty good, although there are a select few who need to not be touching me all the time and trying to grab my hand.

pet peeve: smelly campers... Liz could not have said it better.

Staff meeting next Tuesday night.

My ankle (and the attached foot) is blue. It's absolutely disgusting looking. And I have a huge bruise on my back too. I think I was supposed to be starting senior practices for soccer this week, but Sarah only called me once last week and then didn't give me any phone numbers or times or anything, so what was I supposed to do? And I still can't play soccer, let alone run, so...

4th of July is this weekend. I think I'm doing something with Marla my love, but not quite sure...

Number of Mosquito Bites: 2

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Fahrenheit 9/11: definitely worth seeing. some parts were a little disturbing. some funny. definitely biased. see it and make your own opinion. feel free to post here.

Mood: mellow
Song: Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

You probably already know, but I'm slightly broken right now. I sprained my ankle. Great timing. Hopefully I'll only be on crutches for a couple of days.

First day of camp was today and it was pretty good. I like the other counselors and the kids are okay. Some of my campers from last year also came to see me. I guess the only thing that would have been better would have been if Stu hadn't yelled at me for being broken (because I really did try to hurt it...) and if the new bus driver had known where he was going. I'm excited for this summer and happy about the way it went today, but I miss some of the old counselors from last summer.

Tonight we're going to see Fahrenheit 911 and I'll let you know what I think of it later. Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment and then M is going to help me with my Maccabiah poster for me. Haha, ready for this: The Vicious Knishes.
I could say that it was all my idea, but that would be a lie.

How the hell are we going to draw a knish????
...Suggestions?

A and B - AP Chem - Gibb
C - AP Spanish V - McGinnis
D - AP Gov - Corona
E - free
F -Ancient Lit - Andrews
G - BC AP Calc - Friedland

Yay for not having to be at school until 10:25 on Fridays.

I will not write about school again for a long time.
I promise.

That is all.

Mood: dirty
Song: Leave - JoJo

last day of school was today. yay for just barely passing the math final and screwing up my grade for the whole year. wtf? but at this point, I don't even care anymore...

everything else went well. i got a year book on sale for the second year in a row -- $35

don't hate me because i'm thrifty :)
after we left school, we went back to dana's house to make smoothies -- which were fabulous -- but made me feel a little sick when I finished my two and my spaghetti o's. the best was the creamsicle smoothie.

instructions:
1) take orange sherbert and vanilla ice cream and put in blender
2) add orange juice
3) blend until smooth
4) pour into a glass
5) enjoy!

camp orientation starts in 3 days. not sure if I'm excited. haha. i'm not a bus counselor (again). i think i've been going there for 12 years... so really, it's no big deal... lol

but i can't wait to see my girls!!! i'm so excited because marla and i are going shopping for new sneakers!!! :) haha

bay state games prelims tomorrow. the plan is to take a shower, sleep late, and then track meet tomorrow night..

goodnight moon.

Mood: sexy
Song: Dip It Low - Christina Milian

Haha... still in my pajamas and it's (almost) 11:30 on a Friday! But we're done! I took my last final yesterday and of all of them it was definitely the best. And so I got out of school at like 11:30 and then mer, di, and I went out to lunch.

After lunch I got my hair cut and the woman like chopped off all of my hair. OMG it's so short, but w/e, it will grow back. I really needed a hair cut and clearly the woman thought I needed a lot of it cut.

After that, we went shopping which was fabulous. I got a really cute skirt from jasmine sola and some shirts from express. Then Amy met up with us and we went to urban outfitters and the puma shoes that I absolutely wanted were on sale for $20,
but they weren't in my size!!!!!!!
I like cried. (not really). So then, in a classic case of injustice, the people in the little box on the T would not let us get the student discount because they said "we didn't have school" although wtf do they know? Haha because we definitely did and so I marched back up there to argue with them, but it got me absolutely nowhere. Yay for stupid adults who think they know everything. That's why they are working for the T and get paid like nothing.

What really pissed me off was how they questioned our integrity -- because clearly it had nothing to do with paying an extra 50¢.

So after that, di, amy, and I went to watch the boys' tennis team play in the state finals which was like an hour away, so we drove there without having anything to eat and of course there were no street signs, so we got lost, but then thanks to my fabulous navigational skills (luck?) I got us there... an hour late. But it was okay because it had been delayed because of the rain. They lost, but they played hard. One of the many coaches from the other school was cute haha and Dana and I thought that he was just a kid, but I guess not, since he was coaching them.

And then we got lost on the way home too, and we asked for directions from these drunk people at the bar next to Dunkin Donuts... But then I saved the day once again and got us to where we were supposed to be going. And then we stopped at one of those rest stops on the way home and there was a really cute guy there who gave Di 10¢. Lol what a big spender.

I couldn't sleep very well last night because my leg cramped up and then at like 9 this morning some stupid guy was in my garage hammering on the ceiling... which just so happens to be on the other side of the floor of my room.

Plan for today:
-do ceramics
-throw jav
-basketball game

So I have to figure out what to get mi padre para fathers' day.
Suggestions?

Mood: bored
Song: The Reason - Hoobastank

Right now I just feel very empty. This year has been emotionally and physically draining. I thought it was very interesting how a girl on my AAU team asked if all I do is concentrate on school. The truth is, that it seems like that really is all I do.

Well what else do I have to focus on? My life is so boring.

So make it interesting. Please.

Please.

4 days until excitement(?)


There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire when you come alive

Mood: stressed
Song: Beautiful - Christina Aguilera (see singing in the shower below)


I looked for a dead bouncing star, but it didn't exist...

This weekend and upcoming week is absolutely going to suck.
Sometimes I want to curl up into a little ball and forget about everything.
You should read my college essay about singing in the shower. It's golden.
You should hear me singing in the shower. I'm golden.

I ordered track shirts after school today. I hope they come out okay and nobody hates me. The guy said they should take a week to make.

Bah.

So today was not good. For the spanish final I just needed like a second more to finish up a sentence or so, but then Sr. David was like, "si ustedes no están terminados, tienen que venir conmigo porque hay otra clase en este cuarto." (Translation: If you guys aren't done, you have to come with me because there is another class this room) But I only needed like a minute and then I had my history final right afterwards, so I kind of was like, you know what? fuck it. So I put down a crappy sentence and left to go to history. And then in history I spent too much time on the first essay, and so I had to stay after until like 3 to finish the second one which sucked anyway because the world came in to talk to Mr. Ladenburg, and because he decided it would be a fabulous idea to make fun of me. So thanks Mr. Ladenburg. You better be writing me a damn good letter of recommendation.

So I have the world's worth of work to do tonight and tomorrow and tomorrow night and Sunday and Sunday night and every night until death, but on Thursday I will be done forever (or at least until September).

Soccer meeting after school on Wednesday (unless the announcements made that up)

Only 5 more days...

Mood: busy
Song: To Zion - Lauryn Hill

I need school to be over. This year sucks more than ever and I have lost all interest/motivation in doing anything related to school, and so I'm just holding out for summer. Everything seemed to be going so well and then all of a sudden everything just started sucking so much ass it's not even funny. I'm trying really hard not to be a pessimist.

So of course as soon as track is over, summer league ball starts and I STILL CAN'T GO TO Wednesday practices for AAU even though I have to, so I have to figure out what I'm going to do about these next couple of Wednesdays. We have a tournament in Connecticut next weekend which sucks because of course we have finals that week.

Again, school just needs to end. Only two more weeks...

Today:
-math test
-english paper
-chem test
-read the feminime mystique
-learn 150 spanish vocab words

On a happier note: Harry Potter last night which I thought was really good. But the best part ever was the woman who gasped ridiculously loud at a very unscary part and Merrily and I were crying because we were laughing so hard at her. Mer and I (ok, just me...) are probably the worst movie goers...ever. Haha the guy sitting next to me probably hates me!

Yay for talking during movies!